I AM THE ONLY - EXCEPTION
Have been staying in the house for 4 straight days ! I feel like I am back to the school vacation where I have no spare cash to hangout with friends & have to stay home just to save up the daily allowances from daddy. Now I have the cash , friends were too busy with school & work. I glad that I am meeting them this weekend to catch up with each other. Guess I am not going to stay in the house for the whole day , shall hit to the pool later & swim like a whale.
Recently been dealing with School Withdrawal , yes ! Like finally after 8 months ? WOW. really didnt know time flies till you actually think back about it. I do miss school life , the assigments , the social life and the student pressure. What else do you still need to worry ? No doubts people would love to go back to school lifes once they hit the real society world. - cruel . Saying back about the withdrawal , I have no idea how much i need to pay back to the damn school. She made me join & now she made me pay. I can't help but to get mad at her all times. Sometimes I thought she's changed but still the same. What to do ? My mother leh. Birthday is coming soon yet they are going to Hongkong for holiday without taking me there. I tried my best yknow? No allowances from you guys , hoping life would be better for you all. I have been working for freaking 9 months & everything depends on my own. I never ask any help at all. I got the pay , bring you out for nice dinner & stuff. You hardly call & ask how's life doing but every single call you dialed - asking for money to pay my bills & concerns about quitting school cause they have been deducting the CPF. All about money if you have been realised. Now you know why I am afraid of answering your call ? Mommy , I am trying to be nice. What else do you still want from me ? sigh. Better finish it up about the school & I am free.
Last night I came to know the truth. C , I always thought hanging out with you on every weekend cause you no time with friends & family. Thats the reason you broke up with me & I accepted. From then , I am blaming myself for ruining this relationship. If only , I just spend once a week with you & not being sticky with you. Then you will stay with me longer. I thought you are the one that able to live with me till my life ends with a fullstop. With you , I not fooling around & being serious in every seconds we shared. Then I came to know the ugly truth. Your heart belongs to somebody else - who you said you both were just friends even though you guys used to be together. Do you know I believe you even when your action lies ? I still believe in you even when all my wild guesses were all accurate and thats because I love you. Just after our 5th month anniversary and few days later , You guys got tgt behind my back. Everyone ask why we broke up , I couldn't give them an answer. I told everyone you are the nicest guy I ever met in my life. My judgement was wrong. People said you leave me for some other woman. I protected you & guarded your reputation. I told them you'r different from other guys & nobody can ever compare with you. You will never did such things in my eyes. But I was totally wrong & they were right. You could have tell me the truth. I know from the starts we shouldnt be together cause you'r J's friend. But we did & still make it through months. I know its been a year & happy 1 year anniversary to you guys but the pain & memories that you gave - I can never forget that. You don't have to tell me anything cause I know , like finally. The love was totally a mistake. Now I can move on without giving my love to anyone.
