Only , Almost Here.

Been stuck with the Sex & the City drama series for the past few days. I see myself learning more about New York city and the four women.  Kash told me not to get addict to it but I don't think so ? Hahaha. A escape at Cornelius's house was great , staying for a 3 days 2 night. Stuffed ourselves with great food , SNTC , talks , busy days and nights. It was good to see kash again after the escape. I wasn't that 'addicted' to him anymore. I learnt the lesson in a hard way . Still, I made mistake sometimes. Guess I will never learn ?. Carrie is so me. After breaking up with Mr Big. Late nights hang out with diff guys, sleep till late noon, having take away and restless. This is exactly who I was for the past few years. The major break up I had was with Julian , Richmond and Cheese. Guess kash will be next ?. I don't know. Sometimes I felt we are meant to be , sometimes I don't. I felt somehow he's another Julian...Well I do miss that fellow sometimes.

Last night I got the answer that I always want to hear. I asked kash do he love me ? He replied with a very much. At that moment, there's a magical feeling inside of me & I wasn't afraid of losing him anymore. I know he likes to do things make me annoyed , then I realised he did it to make me learn. He wants us to be together. I am sorry to be an ass with a non-hairy hole. ( personal joke ). haha. I love you too & I want you.

So, I went for interview at the marina barrage. I got the job and I am thinking considering if I should go . But I guess not. I will find a office job with a 1.6k per month. If not the lowest I go will be 1.4K. Sick of searching and going for interview nowadays. Maybe I should just take my time. I still want to wake up late afternoon and doing my favourite thing. haha. & yes. I am moving back to my old house. Goodbye changi (: I do love this place but I felt I have to go back home , for myself , parents , us and friends. Moving back once he left to India , prolly for a month or two. I hope there will be good news. So w are going back to the dating period. I know i will miss him. But I need to do this to make me miss him lesser. I guess welcome back the old kelly aw ? The player , not the lover.